Day 14

We are half way through the treatment. This means I’ve done 14 hours in the cytotron and I have 14 hours to go. My experience from the machine is double- or triple- edged. I’m not comfortable laying on my back for an entire hour, but I am motivated to keep trying because I feel different in my body so far. I feel less tense when I’m not in the machine. Still I’m so used to not move that I haven’t tried to move in years because I just get stuck.

Now I am motivated to try to move but it is really really hard. I try to use my eyes and move my hands. I try to smell the cinnamon stick to move my hand. I try to feel it when my hand is moved and I can sometimes feel that I’m moving. This gives me a little bit hope that I will be able to move a little bit more, maybe a little bit shorter time to respond and maybe more accurate if I keep trying. So even if it rains and my progress is slow, I will keep trying.